| jealousy |
[Apr. 6th, 2009|05:05 am] |
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So I felt an entirely new emotion today. Something that I can honestly say I've never experienced before. I felt a pang of jealousy. I suppose it's a testament to the fact that I'm not the jealous type that I've only just now encountered this sensation. It's a weird feeling. I suppose I ought to explain how this came about.
I was talking to Chris online, and he recently found out that one of his roommates is moving out in a couple months. In light of this, he's considering moving to an entirely new place as well. Apparently there's a possibility of moving in with his friend/coworker Elena.
To clarify, Elena is an extremely sexual person. As in ridiculously so. And when he first mentioned the idea, he just mentioned Elena, not any other roommates.
For a split second, my brain screamed "COMPETITION ALERT! Man your battle stations! This is MY man, goddammit!"
It surprised me how powerful and how visceral a reaction it was. It honestly caught me completely off guard.
It was a completely irrational response, and that's honestly sort of weird for me. I tend to be very careful about thinking things out before I react to them. When I did get a chance to think about it, I realized that Elena isn't a threat to me at all. She doesn't think of Chris in a sexual way even when he's outright talking about sex. She has described him multiple times as being "like one of those guys from Pleasantville." And even besides that, I trust Chris not to be a douchebag.
I guess overall I was just really surprised by how... primal this emotion was. It was an extremely odd sensation for me. I suppose I just felt the need to write it down. |
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It's perfectly normal; that's what emotions do. Sneak up on you. :) | |
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